I grew up in a broken home, feeling alone with no worth in this world. I started smoking weed and going to night clubs at the age of 13. I fell in love with the club scene and started using and experimenting with all types of drugs, from extacy to cocaine, from crack to LSD. When I turned 19 I was using cocaine almost everyday, I had failed in school and never passed my matric. I would steal, lie and manipulate to get money to support my cocaine habit. The one weekend I decided to try and not use, I became vividly ill and could not understand the reason as to why, so I decided to get tested and found out that the cocaine I was buying was laced with heroin and my life went downhill from there. I had found out that I was actually a heroin addict and not by choice. My life changed from that day on which ended up costing me 12 years of my life. I ended up going to my first rehabilitation center in 2011, I left 4 months into my program and relapsed immediately, I went straight back into what I knew best and ended up on the streets for 6 months, sleeping in public toilets and no access to my child, making plans everyday for a bag of heroin in order to feel normal and get through the day. One lesson I learned through that life of addiction was that a child does not stop you from using. Using stops you from being a mother, it rips you away from everything that is morally correct and good. I became suicidal and the want to die was increasing daily. I ended up in ICU twice, the first time I overdosed, my lungs collapsed and I stopped breathing, the doctors had to resuscitate me back to life but it never ended there. In 2016 I got off heroin for good and quickly went onto other drugs, like crystal meth, GHB and mandrax, it escalated to becoming an everyday drug addiction and by this time I was a full blown drug addict. I had lost my health, my family, my children, my sanity and my want to live. This cost me another 11 years of my life. At the age of 37 years old, I made the decision to take my life back and to help those who find themselves in the same dark pit. Only God can save, and by His Grace, I can fulfill the purpose He has created me to be, and that is to help still suffering addicts of today.